Tuesday, October 5, 2010

fire and rain

as little girls, or big girls, for that matter, we set unrealistic expectations for the man we will eventually fall in love with.  "the man" we want to marry - the man who will find us, rescue us, and sweep us off our feet for all of eternity.

"my man" has many traits: he must love animals, but not want one.  he must want children, but be open to not having any.  he must hold doors open for ladies, write well, and speak highly of his mother.  he must accept my love for britney spears and understand my need for a good cup of coffee in the morning.  he must recognize that reading fiction and hating movies that were orginally books is the right thing to do.  he must know that James Taylor is a romantical genious and that the song "fire and rain" is the most romantical song in history.

enter AB. who understands, accepts, and has nice little check marks against everything that i have listed above.


i should barely like him but i feel like i already love him.  he stands for and holds dear everything that i have ever appreciated and been passionate about in my life.  he's a man at 25...and a wonderful man at that.  he is not a boy, not a boy in any sense of the word. he lost his dad to the big C word almost 2 years ago and that made him a very mature and well represented man very early on.  that i recognized immediately. 

where i am loud and obnoxious, he is thoughtful and shy.  where i am mean and rude, he is thoughtful and inquisitive.  and for these reasons, i am completely smitten.  i feel like he holds the power to rescue me from this terrible place i have been residing these past few months and i'm both scared and excited to see where this goes.

he gives me butterflies where i have never felt them before - in my soul.  i want to know him, inside and out.  and i want him to break down the barriers i have built up so strongly after dealing with bullshit and idiocy for as long as i can remember.   he makes life interesting and worth living again. and we've only been out on two dates.

i can't wait to see what happens.  

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